….throw caution to the winds and do something ridiculous.

I've been really good diet-wise for a couple of months now – have not really deviated away from the sensible stuff at all.  But today I'm having a very bad day, I feel agitated and restless and fed up with all the restrictions and just so bl**dy down with it all.  I really feel like stuffing my face with a pile of toast slathered with butter and lots of cheese and pickle, followed by a big bowl of maple pecan icecream, and then a milky coffee with lots of sugar and a bar of chocolate.  And then several G&Ts.

Well, apart from the fact that all of the above will give me raging gut ache, bring on my oral thrush with a screaming vengeance, and do goodness knows what damage to my glucose levels (I don't yet know enough about the diabetes to know exactly WHAT it will do) – why the hell shouldn't I?  (I don't really need an answer to that, I know well enough.  Just felt like having a rant.  It all gets a bit on top of me sometimes)

oh, and i havent got any maple pecan icecream (just as well!!).  Got all the rest though

"I've had a very bad day, so I'll show them, all go out and have a HUGE DINNER, and a FABULOUS DESERT, and that will just show them, boy oh boy!!!!!!"

(P.S. That's not me mocking you Sue, that's what I hear in my head after I've had a bad day.)

I know that feeling Sue, I do it to myself too.

But before you do, remember, after you eat all that stuff you really won't feel better, you'll actually feel worse.

You will only hurt yourself.

Please, don't do it.

If you can't do it for you, do it for me.

I want you to be well enough to meet me and my brood when I bring them to the UK, whenever that day will be.

I do hope you didn't do it Sue- I know how appalling I feel when I give in to a piece of toast- the hours of feeling awful really outweigh the momentary pleasure BIG TIME. trust me, I know…I had a foolish biscuit on Thursday…wish I hadn't.

Well done Sue!  It is so hard, isn't it. I am back on the gluten-free straight and narrow again, and finding it tough. (Also cow-milk and cheese free, and I try to be low sugar. ) I had recently stocked up on barley, and oats, and flour, and have had to replace the lot. But daughter got a lot of it when I visited last week, so it wasn't wasted.

I am using this book for bread. I have tried 3 of them, 2 very good and the third ok but really good for toast! I haven't made up her flour mix yet, so I am using the recipes that use straight flours. I am drinking a lot of fennel tea which helps a lot. How I will manage when I visit my parents goodness only knows–it is bad enough for me to work out what I can eat, without expecting my Dad to manage it.

I like Ruthie's suggestion of making a list of treats you can enjoy.